School is starting really soon....

It really seems so unreal that I am going to school this year. I mean it all just seems not real. I have been homeschooled almost all my life and now I'm going to school....(freaking out). Truthfully, I don't want to go to school. Reasons why:

1) I know absolutely nobody in my class. I have a friend that is in the eighth grade but I still know nobody in my class. I am shy, around people I do not know.

2) I will have to be gone for five days a week from 8:15-3:15.  I am so used to being home all the time. And plus I have to sit and learn for seven hours...wow!! That is a lot to me because usually I can get up and get my school done within a few hours but this take seven hours.

3) I will defiantly miss my homeschool friends. Some of my homeschool friends I have grown up with and now I feel like I am leaving them behind while I go to school.

I dont want this to sound like complaining because I am willing to go to school and it was my choice and I chose to go. I also have some reasons why I want to go to school:

1) My amazing and awesome God has called me to reach out to new people and meet more friends. I have been asking and asking God to give me and opportunity to meet new people and a way to reach out to people and now that he gives me one, there is no way I could pass it up. I need to get out of my comfort zone and shine a light into the world and this is a perfect opportunity. 

2) The structure there is going to help me amazingly because I am not a self-motivated person. I take forever to get my school done just because I get distracted way to easily.  So, now if I know that it has to be brought back to school the next day I will actually get it done.

3) Its a new adventure for me. I'm always looking to try something new and now that I get the chance I'm going to take it!

So, half of me is not excited and the other half is bouncing off the walls excited.  And I have learned that recently I have let me not so excited part of me take over.  Until I wrote this post I was dreading going and now that I look at the reason I want to go gets me more excited. I got to change the way I look at things. :)

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